I am thinking for a while to write a post about compassion.
And well, ain’t gonna be easy…
This and forgiveness are about the most difficult achievements
In my top of goals in life.
Just can’t see something more important…
Well, yes, freedom.
And tolerance.
And.
Still…
And to think I am busy with this for ages…
Did I succeed?
Is there a chance, I will?
Nope!
And to think that comparatively to many, I lived a sheltered life.
And to think that I have to come to the age of 55 to realise it…
And to think that I was a trained nurse…
I should have know, don’t you think?
To believe you have a compassionate heart,
Is an easy made mistake.
Well, I lived quite for a long time, in that idea
To realise now that:
Not many people challenged me,
And the ones who did, were so obviously unbalanced
Or so very unhappy that it was not such a trouble.
As no one did hurt me really deep and to the core,
until some while ago.
Of course, it has happen a month ago, too.
But this was a misunderstanding
and someone utterly generous proposed his unexpected help.
But.
Ten years from here, more or less.
That was a different matter.
First there was the difficulty to forgive.
But the most strange was that to the one who hurt me at first hand,
I had comparatively, giving the grief, less difficulty to do so,
Contrary to the other who could have put things right
with a few kind words of intercession
And I am not sure, yet, if I am arrived at that point, right now.
The trick, the usual trick to accede to forgiveness
Is compassion.
Dalai Lama ’smile had always been my truest teacher.
If that man is able to achieve that smile,
He has the right to speak about compassion.
Of course, compassion for Buddhists is linked to the notion
Of karma and reincarnation.
Well, sure, it seems then to be the only option
For me too.
But even if mathematically or in a fashion of sacred geometry
You can explain it
When confronted with raw cruelty
Or really heartbreaking situations
where people wrong you in the worst way
You don’t have the power to see things in that way…
Well, unfinished.
But still, worth to put here for a while
Until I rework it.
